my heart melted..

i have this good friend, who really is an amazing person. he never hurt anyone or tried to be harmful. but drugs do crazy things to our minds and now he is paying the price in prison. i'll give you a little history of this good friend so you can understand the point of my post.

i remember the first time i met jarrod, aka baybay. i was still living with my girlfriend and her husband in south jordan. i was home that night and they convinced me to go out with them. i thought jarrod was absolutely adorable. he has the most gorgeous smile and eye combination. he dressed really well, paid for everything and was such a gentlemen. he would call to talk about nothing and we would go do all these crazy random things.

then one night we met up and he was acting really strange. we had a little hash out session on where we stood in a relationship way and he insisted we were just friends. the next night i met boyfriend (the ex from last summer) and jarrod and i lost touch. a few months later we ended up hanging out and things were just different. he had a different demeanor about him. normally when he walks in the room he can make even the most unpleasent looking girl in the room feel like she is the most beautiful girl or find something in common with every guy he met.

then there was the drugs that got involved and he got lost. we all did what we could to try to pull him back out of it, but if any of you have had an addiction before you know how badly it screws with your mind and there is sometimes no stopping you.

he has been in prison now for almost a year. from the letters he has written to my friends he seems to be doing better and a little happier. in one of the recent letters he sent to my girl melissa, he told her that they get to listen to a country station and that there is a song by reba that comes on that makes him think of me.

maybe to some of you will think this song will sound stupid or make no sense, but i teared up when i listened to it and haven't stopped tearing up whenever it comes on. i miss my dear sweet friend and wish there was something i could have done to help prevent him from the events that lead him to where he is now.

jarrod and i had a very special connection and if either of us could have manned up and admitted how we felt, maybe he wouldn't be where he is now. but then again, i always say everything happens for a reason. i just hope this time around he learns his lesson because he really does have such a kind, generous and loving heart.

i get to write my first letter to him this week and i am so excited to do so. i can't wait to hear back from him because he was a special part of my life and i will never forget the amazing memories we had together. so please, enjoy the song and maybe you'll understand why it made me tear up.