Monday, March 5, 2012

no one can hurt you now.

today is not the best of days.

yesterday we noticed that mia was acting kind of funny, not really being herself. we knew she had a vet appointment the next day and figured we would get her in as soon as possible. then this morning she started throwing up. i got her into the vet at 8:30am. we did an x-ray and tried to figure out what was going on. the vet told me that if she kept throwing up to bring her back in. as soon as i got her home she wouldn't stop throwing up.

we sat on the couch, waiting for the vet to call me back. i had her on my chest, gently petting her back, telling her i loved her. that i understood. that she would be ok.

i called the vet and told her what was going on. she told me to bring mia back in and that we were going to hospitalize her for the day. after i dropped her off, the vet called me back to tell me that she was only getting worse. we decided to do the surgery to see if there was something in her belly that we couldn't see in the x-ray. the vet called me back. mia wasn't going to make it. after trying to compose myself, i told the vet it was ok to let her go.

mia went onto a new adventure this afternoon. she will be forever missed and loved. she brought so much joy and laughter into our lives. her sweet kisses and cuddles will be imprinted on our memories. she was our baby and her life with us was cut too short. i wish there was something i could have done for her. i wish i could have been there in her last moments.

she was only three months old.

i know that we did everything we could for her. i know the vet did the very best she could to help save my little mia. i could feel her sympathy through the phone as she told me that mia wasn't going to make it.

this was sudden, unexpected and heart breaking. we absolutely love our little mia and knowing she won't be there when we get home today, it is almost like a dream. the tears cannot stop, my throat is burning and my entire body feels numb. this is the first real death i've ever been around. yes, she is a dog, but she was my dog. she was my baby. she loved her momma. she would follow me around the house, cuddle up under my neck and give me tons of kisses.

i still can't believe she is gone.

november 29, 2011 - march 5, 2012

mia,

we know that you are safe and sound now. we know that you are not in pain anymore and that you are going to be ok. we know that even though your time was short here, you had a good life. you were loved by everyone that saw you. you were always so happy and full of life. we couldn't have asked for a better pup. you will be missed immensely.

we will always love you.

mama and dad.

17 comments:

Amy said...

Oh my gosh, Missy, I am so SO sorry to hear this :( I am literally getting chills as I read this post because I can't believe that she was just eating the dog treats that I sent her. My prayers are with you guys, and sending you a giant internet hug.

melifaif said...

Oh my gosh honey...I am so sorry. That is just wrong...my heart and soul ache for you. Sending lots of love and light yoru way....

RIP sweet mia baby.

Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

Texting you right now. I don't even have words. I'm so sorry. Poor you and poor Mia. Keeping you guys in my thoughts.

Rhianne said...

I'm so sorry for your loss :( I'm heartbroken for you both. Sending you lots of love x

Cole said...

I'm so sorry! She was so loved in her short life. Sending you my prayers and hugs.

With Glitter On Top said...

So sorry to hear this, dear. I actually just found your blog and am sorry that this is the first post I've seen. Losing a pet is such a hard and hurtful time, especially when they are like babies to us and part of the family. My prayers are with you as you endure the loss and grief for your sweet puppy. May she rest in peace.

April said...

Oh girly, I am so very sorry. I know how hard this is. Sending you hugs from Oregon!! xoxo

Lacey said...

oh my goodness. i am so sorry about mia. what a heartbreaking story. im thinking of you dear.

Barry said...

Oh Chels, I don't know what to say. I just burst into tears when I saw this. Sandy and I don't have children we have our cats and like Mia they're not just pets, they're family. I've felt what you're feeling many times and it never gets easier.

My heart goes out to you both, and whether or not you choose to you can talk to me about this anytime. I get it.

Wherever Mia is now she's happy. And although her time here was short, she couldn't have been loved more by anyone than she was by you two.

Sending massive hugs your way.

Little Missy Me said...

sorry for your loss, hope you can remember the good times.

Impulsive Addict said...

TEARS ARE ROLLING DOWN MY FACE! I am sooooo soooo sad and so sorry for your loss. I loved Mia. I have pics of her saved on my phone from our texts. Why?? What happened? What made her sick?? I'm so upset for you and boyfriend.

I love you and I am sending a virtual hug your way, Sweetie. XOXO

Mamarazzi said...

oh Missy my heart is breaking for you right now. i can only imagine the pain you are feeling. she was a beautiful baby and your grief is not silly because she was a dog. i totally get that she was a part of your family and i am so so so so so sorry for your loss.

Rebecca Jo said...

I had to read this twice because I was dumbfounded.... bless her little heart :(
Did they ever tell you what happened?
I am so afraid of little dogs being so fragile...
I'm so sorry... my heart is breaking for you...

StephieJ said...

I am so sorry for your loss :(

Darah said...

I'm sorry about your loss Chels. Dogs are family to me, and I know exactly what you are going through. It will get better love, I promise. She was such a gorgeous little pup, and I'm sure she had a purpose to fulfill on the other side. The one thing that remains though is how much love she has shown you and how much love you have shown her. It's amazing how much love you can have for a tiny creature, but it's beautiful too. I love you so much and I hope you find comfort soon because losing a pet is such a hard thing to go through. Love you girly.

Barry said...

Chels, just dropping by to say I've been thinking of you all week. I hope you and Cute Guy are doing okay. :)

xo

Kelli Anderson said...

i'm so sorry ): losses like this can feel impossible to deal with. i hope your new puppy can help alleviate some of the pain!